I live! It certainly has been a while since I posted an update. But here I am.
It has been a whirlwind season. Over the last few months, I have been focusing on teaching, while my composing has been on the back burner. But I think it is time to change that.
This past week, I had the pleasure of having two of my pieces workshopped by the very impressive Vancouver Chamber Choir under the direction of Jon Washburn. It was an amazing and gratifying experience. Hearing my own compositions come to life was a success in and of itself, but the feedback I received was invaluable.
But I found myself in a predicament. For a moment, I doubted myself. I was listening to Be Still and The Lobster-Quadrille and pieces by three other composers at various stages in their own careers, and all I could think was “my pieces aren’t good enough!”
It was a moment of weakness. But I think it may have done me some good. I think, as an artist, I spend about eighty percent of my time doubting myself. Artists seem to be more susceptible to self-doubt than other professions. But it’s what we do with that self-doubt that matters. And I plan to use that to propel me forward in my budding career as a composer.